The Fear You've Built Your Life Around

by An Ongoing Story

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released February 25, 2017

Christian Evans Guitar, Bass Vox
Luke Sabo - Drums
Tyler Bohinc - Guitar, Vox
Hallie Hertrick - Vox
Arielle Tindel - Cello, Synth, Vox
Drew Paramore - Glockenspiel

Carly Graham/Ammunition Audio - Production

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Track Name: Whatever's Left
This is time that we can't take back
With every moment that will justify taking a drag
And when the smokes are gone we’ll get another pack
Cuz this is who we are and this is all we have
It seems a little far fetched
To assume that we’re ready for what happens next
As we wait with the same Damn logic
Of blaming the past but repeating the process

We’ve always been the type to roam
To run away just to come back home
Faking fearless but scared to death
It's harder now to feel alive
And God forbid we even try
To take a second and gather our thoughts
A much needed moment to know what exactly we want

This is time that we won't take back
With every second that we watch just skip through the cracks
These are the plans that I've made
These are the plans that I've kept
I've made up and fucked up some shit that I said
So whatever's left I guess
In time it will get me through the rest
In time it will get me through the rest

This is time that we can't take back
This is time that we won't take back
Track Name: Practically Fine / Take It or Leave It
I know you
At least I like to think I do
But it's so hard when wrapped in dismal thought
Still I'll attempt
To be the one that keeps you distracted
And you'll pretend it's what you want

So tell me where you are and tell me where you want to be
I'd like to think that I could take you there
But based on my luck
I guess I'd probably fuck it up
As so do so well

I'll make do
With any sort of love you provide me
Cuz lately it's been hard to live myself
And I know, I know, I know, I know
I'm better than that better than that, oh
I just can't see it for myself

But if you could explain to me why I should cease to think I'm dying
Then maybe I could try to read again
But it's not worth your sanity so let's commit to total silence
And I'll make due with getting stoned instead

Now tell me who you are and tell me who you want to be
I'd like to say I'm proud of who I am but that's a Goddamn lie
Its with your body next to mine
That I am practically fine

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You were on the rooftop with your friends
Old enough to drink but drunk enough to play pretend
Looking at the city from behind a camera lens
You zoom in on the windows
You watch a mother out her kids to bed
A little to the left there is a couple having sex
There a suddle sense of beauty in the simplest event's
As you blush and point your head down
To the cars around you

It's never quite as good as it will get
You drank all that you could and finished every cigarette
Its two in the morning and you want to go to bed
But that's not what this nights about
You spent the whole summer in your room
Talking to yourself letting sadness consume you
All you've ever wanted was something to do
All you've ever wanted was something to groove

So here it is
Take it or leave it
To put and live
Mother fucker it is here if you need it
Track Name: The World We Knew
I use to watch you standing there
Just playing with your golden hair
You'd smile right at me
My friends pointing and laughing
At 12 years young I had a crush
And never before did I care so much
About the results of my actions
And if my clothes meet modern fashion

I swear I fell in love for the first time
And it was everything I'd ever need
McCartney was right

I took you out my mother drove
She dropped us off and hit the road
At the park we would swing
And enjoy our ice cream
We’d talk about the world we knew
Just TV shows and kids from school
I'd ask you if you like me
You’d blush and enlight me

Oh, oh yeah
It's coming back around again
Think fast
Its coming back around

I swear I fell in love for the first time
And it was everything I'd ever need
(McCartney was right)
I swear I fell in love
I swear I fell in love
I swear I fell in love for the first time

I couldn't find you
You moved away
I tried to call you
But it was late
You're mother answered
And I got scared
I hung up instantly
Track Name: Falling Asleep At The Wheel
I use to watch you standing there
Just playing with your golden hair
You'd smile right at me
My friends pointing and laughing
At 12 years young I had a crush
And never before did I care so much
About the results of my actions
And if my clothes meet modern fashion

I swear I fell in love for the first time
And it was everything I'd ever need
(McCartney was right)

I took you out my mother drove
She dropped us off and hit the road
At the park we would swing
And enjoy our ice cream
We’d talk about the world we knew
Just TV shows and kids from school
I'd ask you if you like me
You’d blush and enlight me

Oh, oh yeah
It's coming back around again
Think fast
Its coming back around

I swear I fell in love for the first time
And it was everything I'd ever need
(McCartney was right)
I swear I fell in love
I swear I fell in love
I swear I fell in love for the first time



I couldn't find you
You moved away
I tried to call you
But it was late
You're mother answered
And I got scared
I hung up instantly
Track Name: You're Selfish, I'm Sensitive
Let's stay close you said
As you granted me the title of the luxury you'll never except
And with that I'd pretend
Though it's hard to interpret I know that you meant it
I know you were rarely content
As every contradiction would gracefully leap of over my head
In a genuine time you would speak
“It’s not you I'm just more fucked up than you think”
But

Every word you said came out a lie
As you construct an illegitimate alibi
And with our continuous cleared we’ll see the brighter side
I'll say you're selfish and you'll claim that I'm the sensitive type

Don't get so distressed
Is only natural that my faults lead you to second guessing
Till I'm hardly a friend
And I create a spiteful to that makes me out as some kind of dick
Cuz

Every word you said came out a lie
As you construct an illegitimate alibi
And with our continuous cleared we’ll see the brighter side
I'll say you're selfish and you'll claim that I'm the sensitive type
And yeah it's pretty clear I wasn't worth your time
I wasn't shocked to hear you found a better guy
I hope you're happy now, now that you cut all ties
If it's as easy as you make it I should give it a try
Track Name: The Cards I'm Dealt
I was holding up a match
To light your cigarette
And I could see your breath as you leaned in
I offered you my coat
You whispered when you spoke as you spoke
As you relied with “nah I don't need it”
But we would reach a point
Where we would share a joint
And talk about the bullshit that we never could avoid
Between your crooked teeth
How I stuttered when I speak
And all the insecurities that kept us paranoid
Paranoid

And I was feeling something I had never felt
My head held up so high I love the cards I'm Dealt
But I get nervous when you point out the time we've killed
It's never gonna last that long
It's never gonna last that long

I want to make it last
I couldn't bear the fact
That any sort of love we had would end at 2AM
Cuz you would have to go
And I would only hope
That fate could play it's part and we could probably meet again
And again and again and again and

And I was feeling something I had never felt
My head held up so high I love the cards I'm Dealt
But I get nervous when you point out the time we've killed
It's never gonna last that long
It's never gonna last that long

And I was feeling something
Oh, I was feeling something
I was feeling something I had never felt
I was feeling something
Fuck yeah I was feeling something
I was feeling something I had never fel
Track Name: Don't Take It Personal
You spoke in metaphors
Trying to portray a sense of beauty
I'm the worthless words you're spewing
Through your lips
You made it such a chore
Just to look back at the wasted weekends
Got caught in a playful pretence
That I would hold so true
You couldn't see it through

And I'm not gonna pry
When talking about love
Its your call (×3)
But with all the wasted time
I've had enough
Not your fault (×3)
Don't take it personal

You've opened several doors
Given me strength and a sense of wonder
I played it cool just to be your lover
All night
But I found it so much more
Than holding on tight to a bunch of blank feeling
I know you're far from healing
I watched you fall apart
Darling I know your scars

And I'm not gonna pry
When talking about love
Its your call (×3)
But with all the wasted time
I've had enough
Not your fault (×3)
Don't take it personal

I watched you disappear
And I fought back every tear

And I'm not gonna pry
When talking about love
Its your call (×3)
But with all the wasted time
I've had enough
Not your fault (×3)
Don't take it personal
(×2)
Track Name: Faking Fearless
We’ve always been the type to roam
To run away just to come back home
Taking fearless but scared to death
It's harder now to feel alive
And God forbid we even try
To take a second and gather our thoughts
A much needed moment to know what exactly we want

We use to see it as a playful trick
Expose ourselves to consequence
Enough to know that life gets pretty rough
And now the only thing we know
Is giving up and getting old
Only to think about what life could be
If we never grew up
What if we never grew up